...tired.

I haven't been on due to a couple of reasons.
1. Sports have started up at school
2. Homework
3. Exhaustion

I won't be able to write till next week! Have a good evening!

An Unexpected Gift.... Well At Least for Me

I lied. Today does NOT mark the beginning of fall. That would be in two days... the 23. This means I have two more days to enjoy summer bliss! I wished my teacher a "Happy First Day of Fall" to which the rest of the class reported to me that it was not. "Thats embarrassing!!" I thought, not that I had made a fool of myself in front of the class, but what followed. "I put on my blog that it was the first day of fall!". Big mistake. I kinda didn't want to tell my friends about this because it was suppose to be a bit of a secret project... Also, somewhere on the internet, I knew my post was there making a bigger fool of myself to the whole wide world. Then I thought, "Oh, wait I have no subscribers!" I was safe... this time.
"Wait, you have a blog?"
"Whose it through?"
"Can I get to it?"....asked my friends.
AAHHH! Not what I intended. Oh well, I am home free this time. No one knows how to get to this blog. But wait, doesn't that defeat the purpose of it? Oh boy.....
Anyway, my unexpected gift was two extra days of summer. I didn't expect to see my dear friend till next year! Enjoy your last days of summer!

Still Learning

Week 2 of school: check! I am two weeks in and it feels like I never left. It was an..... interesting week to say the least. I learned something about myself. I stress. A lot. I am in music class, which I wish I wasn't but I don't feel like writing a novel to explain that, but long story short music class is difficult for me. Every Friday we have a playing test. Each student has 1-2 lines of music to play from their seat while everyone else listens, and the teacher marks you. Performing is a BIG part of the class. That is something that I struggle with. The piece of music this week was the only piece so far that I could't get through the song with out stopping and messing up a billion times. I almost cried right there when my teacher told us what the test was on Thursday. I knew I had a lot to practice. It was decided that I would practice with a friend who is in the class with me; that way he could keep me on track with the timing and help me count... another thing I struggle with. I brought the case on the bus with my alto saxophone neatly tucked inside. I remembered my reed and was ready to go. I also had a science test and another test the next day as well as my music test. I was on my way to my friends house when I froze. I got a sick feeling in my stomach when I remembered I forgot the most important thing... the actual piece of music! That was tucked away neatly inside of my locker at school. Well, I wont get into detail about the evening, but needless to say I was frazzled and on edge. I feel bad for my friend had to witness that side of me. My awesome mom though gave me talk about being stressed out and how it doesn't help with anything. She said that I should give all to God and let of it. For a person to thinks a lot about everything, it's very hard to do. I knew I need some alone time....

Star gazing is one of my favourite pastime. I am a bit of an astronomy nut. It was 9:30 at night when I grabbed a sweater, pillow, blanket, and some amazing apple bread and went on our dock. It was a beautiful yet cold night. But the moon, oh, the moon! It was so bright! The ghost like clouds swirled around it. I also saw Jupiter! For me, that is an accomplishment and a half! I prayed and hummed a worship song to myself. Even though I was freezing, it was a very, very enjoyable night! I went to bed happy and peaceful.
  The next day the playing test went okay. I got a 75% on it which is pretty good considering hardly any practice. I probably could have even gotten 80 if I hadn't gotten so nervous. The two other test went very well! So, here I am enjoying my weekend. I am going to work on my "stressing out" moments. But I know that God will help me do that! Enjoy your weekend, and don't waste time stressing; it's not worth it and doesn't do anything to help!

P.S. Try star gazing tonight! The really, really bright star near the moon should be Jupiter!

-Philippians 4:13

An End and a New Beginning

I have dreaded this day since summer began. The night before school starts. I have heard that June 21st (the first day of summer) was depressing because the days get gradually shorter. I do think that is true, but I think the night before school is even more depressing. Knowing that warm summer days, staying up till 2am writing novels, sleeping in, reading all day long, kids camp, being with friends 24/7, and sleeping out under the stars are all coming to an end. The realization that there are 50 weeks till summer begins and being confined in a building for 6 hours each days begins to sink in.
   About a week ago, I was complaining about school and making comments about 'running away' to my mountain home (long story behind that!!). I wanted to cry. I couldn't possibly imagine going back to school. It seemed that I had just finished my last exam for the year. I didn't want to go back to school shopping and resented the idea of having no down time. I tried to get people to understand my view but it never worked.

That was before I started to realize that it wasn't about me. It wasn't about whether or not I was 'comfortable' at school, but "How can God use me this year." If God wants me there, then I will be there.  I don't think I will ever 'love' school or enjoy it, but I think it will be easier to get through the days without wanting to cry or complain or just wanting to stay home. I am going to try a new tacit this year: surround myself with God. I have note books with verses on them, I have little cards with verses for my locker, I am going to try to get sermons on my iPod, and make time for my Bible reading. Whatever tomorrow brings and this year, I hope it will be as productive and amazing as this summer has been!
   I hope you all enjoy night and I hope you will too, surround yourself with God.