Goodbye and Hello

Usually, on New Years Eve I go through some sort of a depression... My theory is that we FINALLY have gone though the whole year. We lived out day after day, 365 (sometimes 366) time , Monday through Sunday 52 times, and month after month 12 times. Then finally as you are about to enter a new year, you have to start over. Start once again on January 1 and go all the way to December 31. 365 days, 52 weeks, and 12 months; all over again just to do the same thing next year. I felt that we really never got anywhere. I sometimes thought that maybe should change the names of the month, just so we could have SOME change. (I thought of that notion when I was younger.)

But this year is different.... I don't know how or why but it is. 2011 has served me ever so well. But how do you measure a good year? While I am writing, right now, I see that I measure a good year by all the happy times. However, how foolish that is because I will be searching for a long long time for the 'perfect' year. I can honestly say that 2011 was the best year because, sure there were happy times, but there bad times too. But its not so much the fact about the 'happy times', but this year I feel like I have grown. I mean sure my hair has grown and I probably grew a couple centimetres, but I feel like I have grown as a person this year. I feel wiser and a great sense of the world and myself. God has made himself known to me and for that it has been a really unique and fulfilling year! So many memories and stories! I am actually looking forward to the new year!
Have a great evening and enjoy the new year, whatever it may bring. Even though everything seems like an endless cycle, each and every day is different and unique. Live it to the fullest and live it out for God. Enjoy!

Just Thoughts

I honestly forgot that I had this blog. Things have been pretty crazy on the actual River Side. Things also have been pretty crazy and weird at school. Especially this month. I can't even explain. It's like this weird plague that hit everyone at school, and once you got it everyones mood changes. On top of mood changes, just random events happened that you didn't expect. People just stuck with one close friend for the week instead of a group of friends and people acted out of their 'normal'. It was like everyone was in a daze. Its hard to explain and it won't make sense to anyone I suppose. I wonder if I was the only one in the 'daze'? Maybe it was the lack of sleep, stress, being tired of people and school in general. In all honestly I think everyone need a break; to get back to normal and take a mental break. Anyway, that one week out of all the weeks wasn't the only reason that I didn't write. My family has started fostering; which has lead us to many adventures indeed! Not much to indulge there however, it is just not the place or time. God is continuing to open my eyes to new things and look at things differently.

I wonder how many people actually read this.... I mean it really doesn't make any sense, this blog. In order to remain private I almost talk in code. I have to let my readers/viewers interpret what I am trying to say. Oh well, these are just thoughts. If anyone does read this, feel free to leave a comment.

Where did the time go?

I suddenly looked at my calendar then there I saw it. The end of October. It is officially the first day of November. You can't get farther away from summer then now. (Well, I guess December is the farthest away.... but anyway.) I haven't been on in a while because I have been busy with school and sports.
   I discovered a mini TV series and it's just the darling-est thing in the world. Its called Cranford. I laughed and cried and grew attach to each character. Except, during the series you had to learn to withhold your affections because many main characters die for various reasons. Its basically about a small town in England in the 1800s. The population of the town is mainly old women who have never married or are widowed. Sound interesting yet? Well it is. I always wish I lived in the 1800s, then I use indoor plumbing and electricity and I thank God that I live in the 2000s. However, the idea of the that time period and the way they spoke, the propriety, the carefulness of relationships all sound quite appealing to me.

Happy November first, people. Have a good evening.

...tired.

I haven't been on due to a couple of reasons.
1. Sports have started up at school
2. Homework
3. Exhaustion

I won't be able to write till next week! Have a good evening!

An Unexpected Gift.... Well At Least for Me

I lied. Today does NOT mark the beginning of fall. That would be in two days... the 23. This means I have two more days to enjoy summer bliss! I wished my teacher a "Happy First Day of Fall" to which the rest of the class reported to me that it was not. "Thats embarrassing!!" I thought, not that I had made a fool of myself in front of the class, but what followed. "I put on my blog that it was the first day of fall!". Big mistake. I kinda didn't want to tell my friends about this because it was suppose to be a bit of a secret project... Also, somewhere on the internet, I knew my post was there making a bigger fool of myself to the whole wide world. Then I thought, "Oh, wait I have no subscribers!" I was safe... this time.
"Wait, you have a blog?"
"Whose it through?"
"Can I get to it?"....asked my friends.
AAHHH! Not what I intended. Oh well, I am home free this time. No one knows how to get to this blog. But wait, doesn't that defeat the purpose of it? Oh boy.....
Anyway, my unexpected gift was two extra days of summer. I didn't expect to see my dear friend till next year! Enjoy your last days of summer!

Last Day of ......

I am sad to report, that today is the last day of summer. Tomorrow marks the day of fall. The docks are already in, they were taken out Sunday. The geese are making one last stop in front of our house and heading South. Leaves are slowly turning colours and the mornings are getting colder.
    I believe that I mentioned before that I had the best summer ever. The last "best summer" was 2009 I believe. I have been asked why it was so good and part of my answer is camp and what came with camp. Camp forced me to branch out to people and be a "social person".... I like my quiet time and can get "peopled out". By "social person" I mean being with people for two weeks straight. Anyway, I came out of my shell and for the first time in a while I could just be myself. Thats also where I re-commmited myself to Christ. There is a long, yet interesting, story of how that came to be!! It was a very cool experience to see how God worked in my life! I also got baptized this summer at camp! That was a very special time. I also met some great friends! Besides camp I read a lot over the summer; seven books in total. Well, I guess it isn't too many books... Anyway, I got up to see the 5:30 am sunrise, I got to go to Chicago, and I just relaxed. When school got out I tried to plan my summer so it would be "awesome" by making a summer bucket list..... I don't think I did one thing on that list but it still turned out amazing. But that was God's doing. It was awesome because of Him!!!
I have to go do homework, bye!


Can you fathom the mysteries of God? Can you probe the limits of the Almighty? They are higher than the heavens, what can you do? Their depths are deeper than the grave, what can you know? Their measure is longer than the earth and wider than the sea. - Job 11:7-9

Still Learning

Week 2 of school: check! I am two weeks in and it feels like I never left. It was an..... interesting week to say the least. I learned something about myself. I stress. A lot. I am in music class, which I wish I wasn't but I don't feel like writing a novel to explain that, but long story short music class is difficult for me. Every Friday we have a playing test. Each student has 1-2 lines of music to play from their seat while everyone else listens, and the teacher marks you. Performing is a BIG part of the class. That is something that I struggle with. The piece of music this week was the only piece so far that I could't get through the song with out stopping and messing up a billion times. I almost cried right there when my teacher told us what the test was on Thursday. I knew I had a lot to practice. It was decided that I would practice with a friend who is in the class with me; that way he could keep me on track with the timing and help me count... another thing I struggle with. I brought the case on the bus with my alto saxophone neatly tucked inside. I remembered my reed and was ready to go. I also had a science test and another test the next day as well as my music test. I was on my way to my friends house when I froze. I got a sick feeling in my stomach when I remembered I forgot the most important thing... the actual piece of music! That was tucked away neatly inside of my locker at school. Well, I wont get into detail about the evening, but needless to say I was frazzled and on edge. I feel bad for my friend had to witness that side of me. My awesome mom though gave me talk about being stressed out and how it doesn't help with anything. She said that I should give all to God and let of it. For a person to thinks a lot about everything, it's very hard to do. I knew I need some alone time....

Star gazing is one of my favourite pastime. I am a bit of an astronomy nut. It was 9:30 at night when I grabbed a sweater, pillow, blanket, and some amazing apple bread and went on our dock. It was a beautiful yet cold night. But the moon, oh, the moon! It was so bright! The ghost like clouds swirled around it. I also saw Jupiter! For me, that is an accomplishment and a half! I prayed and hummed a worship song to myself. Even though I was freezing, it was a very, very enjoyable night! I went to bed happy and peaceful.
  The next day the playing test went okay. I got a 75% on it which is pretty good considering hardly any practice. I probably could have even gotten 80 if I hadn't gotten so nervous. The two other test went very well! So, here I am enjoying my weekend. I am going to work on my "stressing out" moments. But I know that God will help me do that! Enjoy your weekend, and don't waste time stressing; it's not worth it and doesn't do anything to help!

P.S. Try star gazing tonight! The really, really bright star near the moon should be Jupiter!

-Philippians 4:13

Settling In

   Today is Saturday and thus marks the first weekend since school started. I was really looking forward to the weekend until I discovered all the home work I have to do. 

   Besides homework, I think I am settling in. When I am waiting for the bus, I am still tempted to turn around and walk home; but I am learning. The time of waiting for the bus is one of the things I struggle with. The fact that you can see your house, yet you have to stay and wait for the yellow monst...., I mean bus, to pick you up. Knowing that from the moment you step onto the bus it is the "Point of No Return". But, I am trying my new tactic. I have worship/Contemporary Christian music on my ipod. From the moment I sit down, in the second seat from the front,  I put on my head phones and drown the world out for bit. I have realized how much I like listening to music with head phones. I usually just listen to the radio or my ipod doc. It's like having a personal sound track to your life!

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It wasn't a total downer this week though..... I got some new shoes. My sister calls them "boat shoes". They are quite comfy. I also got a vintage dress, an messenger bag, and a jean jacket at a thrift store. Everything was practically brand new! It as great find! 

Enjoy this amazing weekend! 

Verses that helped me through the week:

    "Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in 

                                                              Christ Jesus for you."

                                                                              - Thessalonians 5: 16-18 ESV

                                                                                                     and

                    The LORD replied, “My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.”

                                                                  -Exodus 33:14

                                         

Oh Boy!

Well, it makes it official. I have cried on the first morning of school for three years. (I've been home schooled up till then... its complicated)

An End and a New Beginning

I have dreaded this day since summer began. The night before school starts. I have heard that June 21st (the first day of summer) was depressing because the days get gradually shorter. I do think that is true, but I think the night before school is even more depressing. Knowing that warm summer days, staying up till 2am writing novels, sleeping in, reading all day long, kids camp, being with friends 24/7, and sleeping out under the stars are all coming to an end. The realization that there are 50 weeks till summer begins and being confined in a building for 6 hours each days begins to sink in.
   About a week ago, I was complaining about school and making comments about 'running away' to my mountain home (long story behind that!!). I wanted to cry. I couldn't possibly imagine going back to school. It seemed that I had just finished my last exam for the year. I didn't want to go back to school shopping and resented the idea of having no down time. I tried to get people to understand my view but it never worked.

That was before I started to realize that it wasn't about me. It wasn't about whether or not I was 'comfortable' at school, but "How can God use me this year." If God wants me there, then I will be there.  I don't think I will ever 'love' school or enjoy it, but I think it will be easier to get through the days without wanting to cry or complain or just wanting to stay home. I am going to try a new tacit this year: surround myself with God. I have note books with verses on them, I have little cards with verses for my locker, I am going to try to get sermons on my iPod, and make time for my Bible reading. Whatever tomorrow brings and this year, I hope it will be as productive and amazing as this summer has been!
   I hope you all enjoy night and I hope you will too, surround yourself with God.

Looking Back at Summer Days!

 I was reading my book (The Last Sin Eater by Francine Rivers) and noticed these clouds. I think they are so cool! They look so light! 

 Experimenting with my camera.

 My mom woke me up at 5:30am to show me this amazing sunrise. I ran outside and started taking pictures. The colours are simply stunning! 

 The earth is the LORD's, and everything in it, the world, and all who live in it; for he founded it on seas and established it on the waters. - Psalm 24:1-2

It is near the last day of August. Hard to believe. Summer has gone by so fast! It has been so enjoyable and amazing! I have learned so much this summer and I can't wait to see what God has in store for me! Enjoy what is left of this beautiful season and make the most of it!

P.S. As you can see, I have found out how to put pictures up! I have a lot more exploring to do about blogging! 

A Windy Day

Today resembles much of a fall day, even though it is August. It is cold, windy and the river is grey and very much alive! My family and I went to church this morning. It was and excellent service and it kept my interest the whole time. I am going to try to have a verse at the end of each post. Today's verse comes from Matthew 22:37 (ESV)

 "And he said to him, 'You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'"

Great verse isn't it? I have a new book to read about Tim Tebow called, Through My Eyes by Tim Tebow and Nathan Whitaker. I haven't read it yet, but my friend and sister both really enjoyed it, so I think I will like it! Well, I am off to get in a cozy spot and work on my latest novel, we'll see how this one turns out! I am almost at 10,000 words. I have to get to 85,000 or something for it to be a decent novel length. I know, I shouldn't focus on length; just tell the story! Have a nice windy day and drink lots of tea! 

P.S. I am trying to learn how to post pictures... hopefully I will learn by the next post! 

An Introduction

This is the first time I have ever attempted to do something like this. I love to write and I've heard that blogging is a great way to do so. And so here I go...

As you have read above I love to write. I have tried to write novels but all have failed and turned into short stories rather then long books. I paint, water colour to be exact, and I am in love with every Beatrix Potter illustration out there. I am also a huge fan of Jane Austen. I can't tell you how many times I have watched "Pride and Prejudice". Along with Jane Austen movies, I am a bit of a "Star Wars" nut. 

I live out in the country on the river. It is one of my favourite places to be. I was home schooled up til grade nine and had many opportunities to explore where we lived. 

There is a little about myself. I think I am going to like blogging! 

Have a good evening!